It has been exactly 7 months since my last post. A lot has happened, not so much in the physical but in the emotional. We have completed all of our adoption paperwork and have bee approved to adopt, now we are just waiting for a "match". We have actually matched twice by our case worker, but the child's caseworker did not pick us to match with the child. It is a long, drawn out, confusing process but we are rolling along.
We successfully made it past our one year mark since Cash's passing. A lot of intense feelings happened during that time and a lot of anger, which is why I quit posting. I can't even describe the amount of anger that consumed me, but I was NEVER angry at God. I was just angry. I had no patience for anyone or anything. But I am over that now. Thank goodness, I don't like being angry all the time. I like angry in small doses, I can ball it up and use it for good, but I can't do angry all the time. It's exhausting.
On to other things. We have been very busy this summer and we are all gearing up for school. We have completed Relay for Life again and are in the process of gearing up for our second Poker Run and planning for much success. We have also been able to tell Cash's story and use our experience to help raise money for the Toby Keith OK Kids Korral. A house for families of children fighting cancer to stay while they are fighting. It has been the best thing for us as far as healing and being able to do something good.
Hope to be able to update on more later!
